Been in bad mood recently. Maybe cause of menses, maybe not.

Well, fuck life. it's 0126hours now, meaning 1:26AM in the morning. & It's the 28th of July.

Time flies, but fuck it. 

Did badly for my Communication For Business (CFB) test.

Cried right after taking it, yes. Call me a failure. Whatever. 

Been crying a lot quite recently. 

Cause of studies, cause of friends, cause of a fucking bias family.

Well, many of you know, I have a proper family with fucking unreasonable parents & unruly brother.

Not that I regard him as my brother though. Fucked up shits. 

Now I eat also got wrong, I don't fucking touch my food, also got wrong. 

Save money also wrong, don't save also wrong.

Want go out also wrong, stay home also wrong. 

Want buy clothes, wrong. Don't buy, also wrong.

Everything I do, no matter what. ALL WRONG LA HOR?

Nevermind uh, one day i'll just fucking leave this house. 

It's just a place for me to sleep la, no point living here anyway.

You think if I can hold a job while studying to support myself when I wanna go out to buy things, 

I don't want meh? 

You think I feel good to take this kind of money from you all meh?

You think I feel good is it? 

You think I feel like, I deserve the money is it?

Please la, the reason why he doesn't take any money from you is because

YOU GUYS FUCKING GIVE HIM THE SAME AMOUNT OF MONEY YOU GIVE TO ME.

& He's like what? Secondary3? 

And you give him that much? & Please, he's fucking working for goodness sake.

Nbcb, everything also against me. 

Ya la, I can't study that's why I'm in ITE la okay .

I'm useless, that's why I ended up in ITE.

I'm too lazy, I put my priorities up wrongly, that's why I'm in ITE la .

But so what? Is he any better then me? No right? 

He's FUCKING STUPID AND SLOW AND LAZY AND HE'S A HUNDRED TIMES WORSE THAN ME.

AND YOU GUYS FUCKING DOTE ON HIM MORE?

Well done, explain life then .

He fucking play his days away, ON THE FUCKING COMPUTER. 

He doesn't study, & ALWAYS ON THE FUCKING COMPUTER.

He spends hundreds over on a fucking mouse. 

He spends hundred over, ON A FUCKING GAME.

He doesn't pack his bags.

He doesn't attend school regularly. 

He SKIPS school .

And you guys fucking dote on him?

My fucking laptop is old like fuck. 

My laptop can't even use MICROSOFT WORDS & POWERPOINT. 

My laptop CAN'T EVEN let me do projects on without crashing.

My laptop, HAS FUCKING INTERNAL PROBLEMS.

& MY FUCKING LAPTOP IS FUCKING OLD . 

& You guys don't give a fuck!

All you guys say is : Send it to repair then. 

Send it to repair, then can use already.

IF in the first place I wanted to get it repaired, 

I COULD HAVE ASKED: WHERE IN THE FUCKING WORLD CAN I GET MY LAPTOP REPAIRED?!

AM I FUCKING RIGHT?!

I need a new laptop. It's a fucking basic need. A PHYSIOLOGICAL NEED. Damn it.

Not a fucking want alright.

He idles and plays his days away, not studying , and doesn't get scolded. 

WOW. 

I study, I stay up for projects, I never even complain about the fucking printer not being able to use. 

& All i get is, "Sleep early la, later tmr call you cannot wake up then kpkb" "Why are you still up so late, what are you doing, go to bed NOW"

Huh? These there? Concern ah ? Well then, I don't need this concern. 

I hate my life now, & I wanna change it so badly.

Right now, I'd rather starve and save money, than to fucking ask you for extra money to buy clothes.

Please la, 50bucks, PER WEEK .

I've not enough for even my meals, expect me to save up for 

my own outing and shopping expenses? 

Well then, try living with just 50bucks. 

ONE FUCKING MEAL COST $3.50 TELL ME HOW YOU SAVE UP IF YOU'RE EATING 3 FUCKING MEALS PER DAY. 

& NOT TO MENTION DRINKS LA HOR.

I save up, I don't even drink sweet drinks. 

I can't even afford to treat myself to a warm cup of milo to warm my day up.

I can't even bear to spend on myself. 

& You fucking ask me to save up, FOR MY OWN EXPENSES.

Please la, even other parents say that 50 per week isn't enough.

Haven't it occurred to you that, YOUR FUCKING DAUGHTER IS GROWING UP & UNDERGOING PUBERTY?

You think I don't wanna look pretty ?

You think I don't wanna work for money myself? 

You think, you think, you think.

Ya la uh, everything you say is right. 

Everything you THINK is right.

Everything you DO is fucking right.

I'm the one, fucking useless. 

Brainless, WEAK. 

A failure. And someone that wastes your money.

Well then, go ahead and continue thinking that way.

I can't be bothered already .

IF I CAN. I WOULD ALREADY HAVE LOOKED FOR A JOB.

TO FUCKING SUPPORT MY OWN NEEDS AND EXPENSES.

You THINK I don't know how hard is it to find a job?

You THINK I don't know how hard is it to even manage my studies and my job at once?

You THINK I'm that ignorant and naive? 

You THINK I'm just that stupid, don't you?

Then, go ahead. I've had enough. 

Enough of this unreasonable and unruly bias-ness against me. 

Fuck My Life.